cigarettes

I’m wondering if any of you just don’t want to talk/think about cigarettes online story, and smoking issues from time to time? I’m also wondering if allot of ex-smokers feel this way allot of the time?
For me, sometimes I wonder if it perhaps just causes more pain than healing to talk about cigarettes and cigarette ads… It eventually dawns on me that most of all this is in the… past… now.
This world of cigarettes, women Buy Online Cigarettes, cigarette ads and such is always shrinking these days. It just gets smaller and smaller… less and less… And there’s nothing any of us can do to stop it, and there doesn’t appear to be any end in sight.
Even if we stopped it now,… I think it’s all pretty much been ruined.
In a way, somehow I wonder if it’s kinda like how a parent feels when one of their children dies. Somehow that’s all kinda unnatural. Children are supposed to see their parents die, not the other way around.
It just kinda feels like a substantial motivating reason for my existence has been lost… and I’m just kinda hanging around, with a big hole in my life.